Torn

Sorry if it took me two full weeks to publish my second outfit post. There had really been quite a lot on my plate these past few weeks (the midterm exams, a looooot of school projects, some extra-curricular duties, and yeah, more school stuffs) the reason why I had little to no time to concentrate on this. Plus, I've recently been confused on what to make of this blog post, even prolonging the hiatus. But this post isn't about whether my alibis for such delay is valid or not, so...

Let's rather talk about confusions since I'm really confused about a lot of things nowadays (no, not my sexuality—that's another story). I don't know but maybe it's just the bipolar weather that's giving me this perplexity. In fact, even A-Fash have had difficulties setting the theme for this shoot since it's now harder to predict if it'll be freezing the next day or not. Turned out, the theme was "Hot n Cold"—ensembles you can wear for both weather, although mine is definitely more on the cold side. Hihi! Well, it was breezy that day so thank God, I was on point. But seriously, as I've told you about in the previous post, I'm still suffering some major confusion with my personal style, this time on a whole new level. Wanting to widen my horizon in terms of fashion, I've been trying out unfamiliar styles and making some crazy outfit experiments that, I'm afraid, may have got me looking like one overdressed clown or cosplayer or whatever mean and unfunny comparison you can think of, as what people were apparently trying to say with their scrutinizing stares. My sense of style has indeed been very different lately. I now go for the weirder things and rather ignore the dressing-up guidelines I use to care about before. I know I'm supposed to feel good about this new-found liberty but right now, I just really don't know.

Moreover, this blog is another thing that's keeping me bothered. Don't get me wrong, I loooove blogging. It's just that I'm still indecisive on how to characterize this blog, on what kinds of stuffs I should be posting here, and on how personal my posts should be. I know that I should be sharing to you pieces of me, apart from the usual ootds, since this is a blog—an extension of oneself, an outlet of one's thoughts and emotions—for crying out loud. I'm just afraid that I might get too whiny and scare you guys away, and I can't afford that. I'm never that good in expressing myself, anyway. I'm sort of a closed book, I think. I literally find it hard to at least describe myself, you know. I'd rather just talk about other people's lives than share mine. Haha! But this is somehow doing just that, right? Then, maybe I'm learning to open up. Maybe, just maybe. *fingers crossed*

Thrifted Bomber Jacket

Thrifted Striped Cardigan and Tartan Shirt

Thrifted Printed Button-Down

Thrifted Boots

Thrifted Argyle Socks

So yeah, sorry, for the litany of problems that is this blog post. Forgive me if I have upset you rather than give you good vibes. My melodramatic self doesn't come out of its shell very often so just give me this moment, yeah? But if you have good pieces of advice, I would really appreciate it if you could tell me about them in the comments. I badly need them.

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P.S. In the happier side of things, A-Fash is celebrating the Ateneo street fashion through its exciting new project, the Ateneo #FOTD(Fashionista of the Day). It glorifies non-members who are spotted embracing their inner fashionistas during wash days by featuring them on the site, one Ateneo fashionista after another. So, let your love for fashion show in the way you dress up, and be featured next! *u*

Solo photos and group shot were taken by Jamie Lou Borile and Malen Barandon, respectively.